You know before he does.
You've learned the tells. The way his ears shift before the knock at the door. The way he finds the corner before the car even slows down. The pause before the bark. The low-level scanning that starts when the routine breaks — when someone new walks in, when the suitcase comes out, when you put your shoes on at the wrong time of day.
You've become fluent in a language you never wanted to learn.
And you've built your life around it, quietly, over months or years. You don't book the Airbnb that doesn't take dogs because he can't handle a new space. You don't take him to the park on weekends because the other dogs tip him over. You don't have overnight guests because the disruption to his routine runs two days of aftermath. You don't board him anywhere anymore — the last kennel stay put him off food for a week.
You don't think of yourself as constrained. You think of yourself as someone who knows their dog.
But somewhere underneath the accommodation — underneath the planning and the management and the workarounds you've built into your life so naturally you've stopped calling them workarounds — there's a thought you never quite let yourself finish:
This is a lot. And it doesn't seem to be getting better.